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Name: David
Location: Moncton, New Brunswick, Canada
Birthday: 8/16/1982
Gender: Male
Interests: Nascar, the outdoors, friends, fly tying, art, painting, drawing, writing, antiques, bottles and insulators.
Expertise: I am a professional fly tyer, and have shipped my flies to at least 14 different counties(Canada, USA, France, UK, Germany, Denmark, Japan, Australia, Sweden, Iceland, Isreal, Argentina, Chile, South Africa)
I also do pencil drawings (portraits, animals) and landscape painting.
I research antique bottles and insulators, and venture into the outdoors to find these treasures whioch have laid buried over 100 years.
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MSN: hunthicks@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  hunthicks_15
Member Since:
8/29/2003
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| Wow, it's been.....almost exactly a year since I last posted anything here. Why? Well, to start with, I'm generally busy. Then there's the fact that no one really gives a crap about what I have to say. I just generally ramble more about my feelings than anything, Xanga is more a journal for me to look back on.
So that's why whenever I think of posting here, I just don't. But, to be honest, I just need to rant. Not even so much about my own life, but about anything and everything. And, I'm not overly concerned with what people think of my opinions; after all, does anyone else in today's society really care about what I think about them? The only difference is that I can see other people's opinions, understand where they are coming from, and then use good old logic to debate it if i so wish.
So, for tonight, a brief overview of why I feel like ranting:
The world is going to shit. Maybe it's always been heading this way. But I've only really noticed these past few years. There's no logic to what people do. People hate for no reason. People are hypocritical, illogical, mean, self entitled and just plain stupid. People will latch on to a hatred/dislike for no real discernible reason. Twilight. Miley Cyrus. Nickleback. Nicholas Cage. Country Music. When approached with logic, are any of these really any worse than their peers/artistic counterparts? No. But the masses have latched on to these, and will stop at nothing to declare them terrible. Some people will literally laugh you out of a room, torment you, even alienate you because you don't mind(or god forbid, enjoy) one of these.....and then completely disregard your dislike of their bands/movies/books etc. Fictional example of what I'm saying:
"You like the Twilight movies??? OMG! You are just so stupid!!" "Uhhhh, ok, you don't like Twilight. What do you like?" "I just cannot watch enough ANIME!!!!! It's AMAZING!!!!!" "That's cool. I could never watch anime, it's really not my thing." "WHAT?????? You really are an idiot. Anime is awesome, ask anyone! I don't even wanna be around you knowing that!"
I just don't understand this concept. I dislike a lot of music. Most hard metal. Rap/hip hop. Nicky Minaj makes me want to stab my eardrums. But if my friends like it, so be it. I'll just most likely leave if they try to make me listen to it. And probably sneak country music into their room while they sleep. But I can logically understand they have different preferences than I do. I can understand my opinion is not the end all and be all of knowledge. Because, after all, I believe there is only one rule to life. Do whatever you want, as long as as you are not intentionally endangering anyone physically or emotionally to the best of your ability.
So, that's it for now. Not that I really expect this to be read much - but I need to rant or I'll end up chasing someone through rush hour traffic naked trying to stab them with a carrot or something. But I'll be adding to it on a regular basis. Or, well, at least before the next year is up.
And yes, I thought the original Twilight movie was fine. Yes, the vampires sparkle. Given that film is basically a form of artwork, and vampires are fictional, than I see no reason why a sparkling vampire is any less logical than the tradition one. Oh, right, that whole "My opinion trumps all other opinions and logic" thing. Never mind. | | |
| I have no idea what it is about huge winter storms like this that make me feel all deep and like posting....I also don't know why I'm disappointed when storms like this end. Ugh, I should really be sleeping, I've made a point of really changing my life for the better, no more procrastinating(Ok, well...considerably less. But I'm trying), eating right, keeping in shape, keeping my mind and soul in the right place. Cutting down my gaming and starting to try harder to pursue hobbies. I have goals for the next couple of years, and I don't care what it takes, I'm going to achieve them. It's not an easy feat, as there doesn't seem to be a day go by that I don't feel like utter crap. Back pain, knee pain, headaches, and general malaise. In fact I twisted my right knee last night and now it's super painful, just in time for a week of work in which I have to walk 6KM home each night. But, hopefully I can see a doctor soon, and hopefully in the meantime I don't completely screw my knees up. I want nothing more than to live an active life. And, even with all this crap going on with my body I feel better then I have for a while....everything just feels alright for once. And that's just odd for me. But, in light of what I just said I suppose it's best I head to sleep soon. There's errands to be run, cleaning to do, flies to be tied tomorrow. And maybe a phone call or two. It's damn time I call a few friends. I suppose there's time for a song or two before I sleep.....after all nature wrath is in full effect. There's a little bit of crazy in me that wishes I could be out there right now....sometimes in today's world reality becomes blurred. The full force of a winter storm sure snaps you back to reality. I've posted these lyrics before.... but given the storm raging outside, i think it's appropriate. Lifehouse - Storm how long have I
been in this storm
so overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
water's getting harder to tread
with these waves crashing over my head
if I could just see you
everything will be alright
if I'd see you
the storminess will turn to light
and I will walk on water
and you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
and everything will be alright
I know you didn't
bring me out here to drown
so why am I 10 feet under and upside down
barely surviving has become my purpose
cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface
if I could just see you
everything will be alright
if I see you
the storminess will turn to light
and I will walk on water
and you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
and I will walk on water
you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
I know everything is alright
everything's alright | | |
| Ahh, life. It's really quite amazing how it works. No matter how much you know something is going to happen, it's still shocking when it does. The holidays were really a dual edged sword this year. Of course I enjoyed the time I spent with friends and family - but then there were some pretty upsetting happenings. My mother health has seriously declined and she's moving out of her apartment, and my grandmother passed away. Of course I try to see the bright side, it's just tough. Winter itself is now in full swing, with a snowstorm every few days it seems. It gets pretty dull and dreary, and I curse the weather. I wish I could just embrace the snow.....spend a storm next to a roaring fire in a little cabin staring out the picture window at the fury of the storm. Trapped, yet so cozy and warm. Just one more of life's little contradictions. Well it's time to sleep again...there's another day of work and things to do again tomorrow, even though there's supposed to be another storm. Maybe I'll get a peacefull moment to reflect on everything. When I'm waiting for the bus to work, especially when it's snowing I like to zone out for just a minute. I focus on a single target, ignore everything else, and then let my mind drift. It helps give a little clarity. And, well, so does the cold. | | |
| T'was another snowy day today...I actually rather enjoyed my brief walk in it. But now, it's 2:30 in the morning and I should be sleeping. But, a few words can't hurt I suppose. Megs is going in for surgery in a few hours...I'm not really worried - I have trust in the ability of the doctors, but it's still unnerving having a loved one go in for such a procedure. Ugh, I dread ever having surgery...the mere thought of someone cutting me freaks me out. I'm not sensitive to blood really, and I injure myself on a pretty regular basis...it's just, that thought of someone cutting me open and poking around in there. I definitely think I'd rather be shot than stabbed if I had to pick between the two. So, no real deep or interesting topics tonight...I just feel like writing. But it's bed time...time to listen to a few songs and head to sleep. I really want to start remembering my dreams and posting them here. I also want some bacon. | | |
| Ah, winter. On the surface I'm not a fan. Cold, snow...not being able to do what I want outside. It's easy enough to curse winter... But there's the part of me that really enjoys winter. There's something mystical about a cold winter's night...something dark and brooding when the cold wind is tugging at you as you walk through the snowy darkness. And, yet, a light snowfall on a winter's eve is somehow peaceful...comforting even. And the sheer force of a winter storm...it's pretty awe inspiring. While, for safety's sake, it may not be a great idea - taking a walk at dusk in a blizzard is really an interesting experience...for me, a deep one. Especially in the woods. The cold, the wind, the driving snow...it makes you so aware of your life. How frail it is compared to nature. Some like to use that feeling to point out our insignificance in the universe....yet, somehow it comforts me. The way everything works...a blizzard is hardly the worst thing life has indured through the millennia. Yet..here it is. And then there are those starry nights...the ones where it hits minus 30...minus 40. The cold is downright painful....but the stars seem so much closer. The cold really seems to connect it all for me....I don't know why but those nights staring at the sky while feeling the cold chill on my skin, I really felt some connection to the universe. Sure, it sounds crazy. But it's kind of surreal anyway. I just kinda get lost in myself, and time just seems to slow, and the cold seems to go away. Maybe I'm just half freezing to death.... Well, I should sleep. I should have been in bed hours ago but I got lost in my mind and the digital world. Maybe I'll write some more tomorrow Sleep now. | | |
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